this semester I came back to school after medical leave and I was so terrified!!! I was so terrified that it wouldn't work, and that people would have forgetten about me, it would be like coming back to a place I had left and feeling that there was not a place for me anymore because I left while my friends I made at college kept "living." This semester- it ended up being really amazing and I met so many new people and was held by my longtime friends and had so many conversations with people!!! I thought of it as me planting roots, I love it so much when you write about that. Like a lot of the problems haven't gone away, but now, I know I still want to be here and water the life that lives within me in this place. random, this is so beautiful to me: the day you listened to Most Perfect Gold of the Century 112 times was the day before I turned 19, the same age you were on the subway, and you were right beside that man screaming between the train cars. everything is connected :'') ALWAYS!!!
Caitlin, I always love hearing your thoughts! I'm so glad to hear how things are going and to hear how similar our lines of thinking are. I love that there was so much synergy with August 12th! And I'll say that everything in my life got better after the age of 19 <3
You are a source of hope for me, Spencer, not even just about whether things get better or not, but also that hope is a beautiful and powerful force, a force that is worth it.
This moved me deeply. Thank you for writing this <3
Thank you, Dani! Glad it resonates <3
I am so grateful for you, Spencer.
this semester I came back to school after medical leave and I was so terrified!!! I was so terrified that it wouldn't work, and that people would have forgetten about me, it would be like coming back to a place I had left and feeling that there was not a place for me anymore because I left while my friends I made at college kept "living." This semester- it ended up being really amazing and I met so many new people and was held by my longtime friends and had so many conversations with people!!! I thought of it as me planting roots, I love it so much when you write about that. Like a lot of the problems haven't gone away, but now, I know I still want to be here and water the life that lives within me in this place. random, this is so beautiful to me: the day you listened to Most Perfect Gold of the Century 112 times was the day before I turned 19, the same age you were on the subway, and you were right beside that man screaming between the train cars. everything is connected :'') ALWAYS!!!
Caitlin, I always love hearing your thoughts! I'm so glad to hear how things are going and to hear how similar our lines of thinking are. I love that there was so much synergy with August 12th! And I'll say that everything in my life got better after the age of 19 <3
You are a source of hope for me, Spencer, not even just about whether things get better or not, but also that hope is a beautiful and powerful force, a force that is worth it.